[Noisebridge-discuss] This will be the last email I ever send the discuss list, along with any relations to this place period.

leigh-mcinnis gaetjens lmgaetjens at gmail.com
Tue May 8 20:18:23 PDT 2012


On Tue, May 8, 2012 at 8:18 PM, leigh-mcinnis gaetjens <lmgaetjens at gmail.com
> wrote:

> seriously dude the drama has to go
>
>
> On Tue, May 8, 2012 at 7:11 PM, Matt Joyce <matt at nycresistor.com> wrote:
>
>> Grow up.
>>
>> On Tue, May 8, 2012 at 7:06 PM, justin doerr <justinsfca at hotmail.com>wrote:
>>
>>>  You know what? If I may debate all of this. I am actually doing the
>>> best that I can not to be hostile. But hey, since everyone else is talking
>>> drama, I'm about to completely explode!!! I am going to get it all out. My
>>> closing statement if you will.
>>>
>>> I feel that it is my humble opinion that so many of you are acting like
>>> such hypocrites in saying everything that you are saying.
>>> For starters, define "trolling" and define "hacking" please? And please
>>> define them under the terms of which the entire community of members have
>>> delivered a consensus upon.
>>>
>>> Also, YOU WANNA KNOW SOMETHING, I *didn't* want to share any of this
>>> with anyone because after all this is supposed to be private, but the way
>>> so many of you seem to be so incredibly merciless with your criticism of me
>>> in the past, along with the unethical things that have been done to me,
>>> along with *ALL* the back and forth drama between RAYC and I, or
>>> Cynthia, or WHO'S HACKING AND WHO'S NOT!?! or WHO'S TROLLING, WHO'S NOT!
>>> Everyone seriously just shut up, and when you say something like "SHUT UP
>>> AND HACK" you're saying something, as opposed to SHUTTING UP AND HACKING!!
>>> Did you think of that?!
>>> Oh and I was in a shitty position two months ago where I lost many of my
>>> friends, along with contact from my relatives. When I was in Washington DC,
>>> after I read that email of Robert accusing me of stealing $100, after I
>>> replied back to him, I FOOLISHLY got up and walked into my mom's bathroom
>>> and swallowed two bottles of my mom's Adderall and Xanax pills in her
>>> medicine cabinet. I had to go to the hospital to get my stomach pumped, and
>>> be put into a psych ward for 72 hours in Virginia. I am being open and real
>>> about it because this is what this fucking place has done to me. After
>>> spending 80-90 hours a week watching the lives of countless others falling
>>> apart in front of me, and a person who I once highly thought of as probably
>>> my best pal and buddy at the hackerspace was filming me and laughing at me
>>> in probably one of the most humiliating and degrading moments in my life.
>>> OH AND IF I DIDN'T FEEL BAD ABOUT WHAT I DID, AS IN THAT WAS THE LOWEST
>>> POINT IN MY LIFE, WHY DID I TRY TO KILL MYSELF!! HUH?! So I spat on Robert
>>> and I sat on his feet once. You wanna know what Robert, maybe the reason
>>> why I am so reluctant to cave in and submit myself to your constant
>>> accusations of making me out to be such a violent criminal is because of
>>> something I was trying to tell you for months and I was going to until you
>>> publicly embarrassed me by YELLING AT ME IN PUBLIC AT A BURGER KING! You
>>> wanna know what I was trying to get at, I was trying to relate to your
>>> situation by letting you know I was a victim of a very nasty hate crime by
>>> my brother for coming out of the closet when I was 13 years old. And since
>>> we're on the subject, I was a constant victim of harassment in my
>>> conservative high school and I even got my car vandalized. Maybe what I was
>>> trying to tell you all along was that I *was* suffering and am *still *suffering
>>> from gay shame, and all I wanted was to have a male hetero
>>> friend/buddy/strictly platonic friend that I could relate that to, and I
>>> THOUGHT you'd be the type of person that would understand.... It wasn't for
>>> 11 years that I finally told someone about what happened to me.
>>> WHAT YOU DID REALLY HURT MY FEELINGS, and I KNOW that what I did to you
>>> was hurtful and wrong along with all of this constant back and forth
>>> arguing in *PUBLIC!!!* OVER SUCH STUPID NONSENSICAL CRAP!!! And NOT
>>> ONCE HAVE YOU EVER APOLOGIZED to me for anything that you have done to
>>> disrespect and hurt me a LOT on MULTIPLE occasions. IMHO (AND YES I KNOW
>>> HOW TO SPEAK TECHSPEAK!! BECAUSE I AM SOOOO TECH!!) I am still in AA right
>>> now and GOING STRONG, and I'm out here busting my ass trying to get a job.
>>> And you wanna know something it's because of all of you out there who are
>>> being discriminatory and arrogant egotists to newbie hackers like myself
>>> who at one point was getting the highest grade in all of my IT classes
>>> THANKS TO NOISEBRIDGE that I stopped feeling welcome. SO SORRY, I didn't
>>> GRADUATE from MIT, and invent Google sunglasses. And I was having a lot of
>>> fun, but now look at where this has all gotten. I can't HACK anything, NOT
>>> EVEN ASTROLOGY, even if I wanted to!!! And you wanna know something Robert,
>>> I feel like you have so much criticism for others, but look at your life.
>>> It is falling apart before my very eyes because you are spending 80-90
>>> hours of your weeks' time at Noisebridge, avoiding your own *REALITY!!!
>>> AND I CAN'T BARE TO ALLOW MYSELF TO WATCH!!!*
>>> *I am so beyond done with this place, and this fucking list, or any of
>>> these threads or anything related to this place!!! I really wish that I
>>> could come back here, but HOW LONG before Robert decides to have one of his
>>> bitter angry temper tantrums and calls the cops on me? OR HOW LONG BEFORE
>>> ANY OF YOU TRIGGER HAPPY INDIVIDUALS PULL THE SAME STUNT?!?! Huh? HUH?! AND
>>> GO AHEAD UPLOAD THAT VIDEO OF ME AND SEO it!! MAKE MY DAY!! *I have
>>> never felt so much more insulted and unethically mistreated by so many
>>> people in my entire life, and what's worse, this place started off being
>>> really cool, but *then* all the drama turned me into a drunk angry
>>> monster!! AND NO, I'm not going to do anything drastic, I'm just fucking
>>> done! I'd be CRAZY if I ever came back here, if this space hasn't already
>>> made me crazy enough... This place seriously needs to get an HR department.
>>> *
>>> *
>>> *P-E-A-C-E*
>>> *OUT, HAVE A GOOD ONE!*
>>> *
>>> *
>>> *- *Justin Patrick Doerr
>>> PS, I'm gonna go check out HackerDojo in Mountain View, I heard that
>>> place is drama MINIMUM compared to Noisebridge. And then I'm going to hit
>>> up Geeks and Depression, thanks Mitch for posting about that. But
>>> otherwise, I can't deal. Thought I could.... can't... Farewell NB Disgust,
>>> farewell Noisebridge. Farewell, farewell, farewell.... Emo Force-quit
>>> Noisebridge sequence begins now...
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> PO Box 150063
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> lmgaetjens at gmail.com
>
>
>


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Leigh McInnis Gaetjens
(415) 572-4169
PO Box 150063
San Rafael, ca 94915-0063
lmgaetjens at gmail.com
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